Monday, September 20, 2004
Hello.
Im so tired of this life.
Really tired alrdy.
Jus hope time will stop here.
I wanna end this life.
Haix.
Problems are starting to occur.
I really don't know what's gonna happen next.
And I know I wont want it to happen that way.
I caused her tears and pain.
If she chose to leave, I wont beg her to stay anymore.
Althou I need her a lot.
Im nothing without yoo.
She had to do counselloring.
Haix.
I didn't expect things to turn out this way.
I hate that feeling.
Really, I do.
Now, we quarreled a lot this few wks.
Haix.
It jus makes my heart shatter into million pieces.
Maybe for me, that is jus once.
For her, its million times before.
Well, exams are nearing alrdy.
I really don't want all this to affect me, my mood esp.
It's a great impact.
Now I cant stop thinking abt it.
I feel so dead.
I might as well be dead, ryte?
Yess, I agree.
Im gonna start studying alrdy.
I know its kinda late but yyep,
I really wanna study this time round.
I don't wanna end up in the same class as steph
(Althou I wld loved to.. its not a good sign to be..)
I don't wanna be the one crying over dead results at the end when we get back our results.
I wanna be the one crying cos of excellent results.
Like what nic told me,
"tell urself, u wanna be the one commanding, not the one being ordered. Im sure yoo can do it, girl"
Nic, I had never forget this.
Never will i.
Thanks for encouraging me all this while.
Im so worried abt baby now.
How can I not be worried.
Oh wells, she jus cried. AGAIN.
Man. I cant be there for her when she need a shoulder
I feel so dead. x(
Guess Im gonna breakdown in any moment.
Oh please, why do I hafta suffer in this.
Yess yess, life is unfair.
Regina said this.
"take things easy, one at a time. Life is never a bed of roses. We cant expect things to turn out the way we want all the time.there are always setbacks.dont let them pull yoo down. Pick Urself up and carry on with this journey, u'll find plenty things on the way."
This msg is still in my phonie.
I can never forget this.
Thanks to her.
Never regret turning to her that time.
Well, think I've been talking a lot.
Hahahah.
Shall end my entry with msges yyep.
To dearee_o9,
U ah, better study hardd okie?
Don't worry so muchie abt me alright?
*hugs
shall cyaa arnd if there's chances okie?
Lovee u!
To baby,
Don't think too much alright?
Im sure we wld be fine.
Jus fine.
Im sure daddy wont do anything to harm the both of us yyep?
Study hardd ok?
JIAYOU!
Rest while yoo can ok?
I don't wanna see pandas!
Tk lotsa care alright?
I miss yoo a lot.
Wells, im meeting yoo tmr. x)
Love yoo!
; stick with you
